Nevertheless

What I have is what God in His infinite wisdom and perfect love has given me that He might use me in this place and at this time in my life for the furtherance of His kingdom. What I want is what I in my finite wisdom and self-love have decided that I need in order for Him to serve me in the furtherance of my kingdom. It is a repudiation--a rebellion against--His infinite omniscience and Calvary's love. I have not yet prayed the prayer--and it is an agonizing prayer--"Nevertheless, not my will, but Thine be done."